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Friday, March 2nd, 2018
10:26 pm - Update
I moved. I lived in Hell's Kitchen for twelve years, and now I live in Lower Manhattan, at the edge of the Financial District by the Brooklyn Bridge. This is a huge difference. I really miss Hell's Kitchen sometimes.  It was incredibly central--somehow there was always a vague feling of everything being twenty minutes away either by foot or train, and knowing it so well, so long, it was as if we had merged in some ways. I still can't get over not being able to walk down to the Hudson River and stare at those little Jersey towns, which I did while stressed out abotu so many different situation. I also miss my neighbors, the bodegas, the plaza, Central Park, junkies, and just the aura of warm randomness about the place.

The place I'm in now is bigger, and that has been great. I was so used to living in a tiny place with a tiny, disorganized closet. Now everything has it's place and it's very peaceful. There is a lot of light in this apartment and it is perfect to write and work in. The proximity to Chinatown and downtown bookstores, bars, and restaurants are cool. Since most of my friends moved to Brooklyn out of college, I don't have too much familiarity with LES, Soho, Nolita. I haven't been able to walk around too much because of the weather.

And, I'm out of the fourth floor walk-up! I've lived in so many fourth floors then chosen a low floor as the next place in my life. 

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Thursday, January 21st, 2016
8:20 pm - Today was the greatest . . .
I'm working on Book 2 in the mornings. I do like it, but I think I need something else to happen, and I can't quite figure out what yet. I think the answer may lie in the best friend's erratic younger sister. Like she does something that prompts the best friend to need emotional support, but the main character can't give it because she's channeling all her energy into herself.

This morning, I woke up, (Talib Kweli voice.) I wrote in Book 2, started line-editing, then went up to meet an old co-worker Liz at Indie, a restaurant in Lincoln Center. I ordered this great kale salad with [$3 worth of] avocado in it. Liz is doing awesomely. We went through a long period together we were both adrift professionally, and now that has been nailed down a little bit. It was great to see her happy and thriving. Then I came back and failed to complete my page quota. Eep. Basically I'm going to have to line-edit on Saturday now, which I guess I'm trying to embrace because the storm is coming.

I think I might have mentioned that I have a new popcorn maker, and I use it like three or four times a day. Also, I'm on Weight Watchers, and desperate to make goal weight so I can stop paying. I am three pounds away. Last week, I was .6 pounds away, so . . . (fill in feelings of disappointment and renewed determination here!)

Okay. Time to start those dishes.

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Monday, January 11th, 2016
6:34 pm - Journal Entry
So, I ended up shredding all my paper journals--I actually kind of regret this, but not in a strong way. But I do think it would mak an interesting historical record. Like the time in 2008 when I wrote "Wall Street in trouble" before launching into my woes.

But maybe it will bring me back to LJ?

Has anyone else noticed how all the random people from NYC they added in 03, 04, 05 became professional writers? Or was it just my group?

Anyway, I'm sitting here about to go to trivia with Danielle and Robert and possibly Danielle's friend. I have zero edge at this trivia, which makes it a little boring, but on the plus side, it is very close and the seating situation is nice.

I had a banner day today. Woke up at 5:45, went to Starbucks and wrote, went to the post office and mailed a certified letter, a bunch of photographs to Al from a project we did, and picked up an Ebay package (razors.) Then I came back and started work on a query letter (drafting for someone else.)  I took like three fifteen-minute naps. Was really fighting this because I want to get into the wake-up-early-write-fiction routine. We'll see how it works out tonight (in terms of will I fall asleep on time.)

I got as far as I could with query letter, picked up my laundry, started playing music off of Pitchfork's 100 of 2015. I had forgotten how good the Cha-Cha song by D.R.A.M. is (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jzMhcP7ab3k).

Bowie passed away. Something that I avoided saying in conversation, except to Maya and my mom because it sounds ridiculous, was that I was not surprised and had a feeling it was coming after seeing some footage of him recently, and also for other reasons I don't want to get into. So personally found that eerie. Mom started emailing me articles she found about Iman's other daughter, who I guess is dark-skinned and heavy and has issues. And then found some stuff about how Iman lightened her skin, which--I was always confused about why Iman was so light.

I went out on a date which disintegrated into me trying to articulate why I can't stand conversations about Trump and then purposefully setting the guy up to say something negative about Kim Kardashian. Negative conversations about both get under my skin--I guess I basically feel it is some sort of class warfare, where hypereducated, socially liberal people who are culpable in the oppression of the poor seem to get off on putting down those people, ostensibly for their racist positions. (I mean this is easier to see with Trump--feel there is something analogous with Kim K. and women.) But I just don't think social equality starts by kicking "white trash" around? Whatever! Don't mean to bring my negative date energy onto LJ.

My birthday is coming up (2/6), and I must say, I'm really excited. I love being a birthday person, and I already have the invitation set up.

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Tuesday, December 29th, 2015
12:07 am - 2015 Year in Review
I'm back!!!!!! Thanks never_the_less for putting the survey up...I had to take last year off due to sad family stuff, but am back with a vengeance.

1. What did you do in 2015 that you'd never done before?
Had a book published.

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
No and no.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes. My Aunt Mary and Grandma Bartlett, matriarchal figures from childhood. Not so close to Greg, but not far, either.

5. What countries did you visit?
None. Also enjoyed staying around town.

6. What would you like to have in 2016 that you lacked in 2015?
A relationship--and although I joke about "settling," I would actually really not like to settle.

7. What date from 2015 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I don't have any--this trips me up.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I made significant progress in handling my father's stuff.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Again, I'd have to cite my love life. I decided to take a break from dating or thinking about dating but was kind of hoping something would work out anyway. Nothing really developed.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

11. What was the best thing you bought?
I bought a lot this year. The Bose speakers are pretty important.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
David came to NYC and as usual made life so fun.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Ugh . . . lawyer I have to deal with.

14. Where did most of your money go?

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Beginning second book, making progress on it.

16. What song will always remind you of 2015?
"The Hills" by The Weeknd.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
I think every year happiness increases as you learn not to rely on external events for happiness, so I'd say I was happier.

ii. thinner or fatter?

iii. richer or poorer?

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
I guess dating.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Goofing around on the Internet.

20. How did you spend Christmas?

21. Did you fall in love in 2015?

22. How many one night stands?

23. What was your favorite TV program?
The Affair

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

26. What was the best book you read?
The House on Fortune Street by Margot Livesy.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Vibed with the new A$AP Rocky album.

28. What did you want and get?
Business was better.

29. What did you want and not get?
Yes, love again.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
The Piano Teacher. I'll never forget that movie.

31. What did you do on your birthday?
Karaoke at Pulse!  A shoe was lost.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Yes, love again.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2015?
Bright colors.

34. What kept you sane?
Eckhart Tolle.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Cillian Murphy.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The solitary prison stuff.

37. Whom did you miss?
Beyond the obvious, Ben.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Tatiana, my bank friend!

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2015.
Embarrassed to say, as this is belated, but a weekly cleaning schedule rocks.

40. BONUS QUESTION: What were your best meals of the year?
Can't remember--Christmas dinner was pretty good.

41. Other new question: What are you looking forward to in 2016?
Falling in love, finishing my new book.

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Monday, December 17th, 2012
10:38 am - Let's go! 2012

1. What did you do in 2012 that you'd never done before?
Hmmm. I...bought a Kindle!

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions and will you make more for next year?
Absolutely not. However, I will endeavor to keep the apartment clean

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

4. Did anyone close to you die?

5. What countries did you visit?

6. What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?
Accepted manuscript.

7. What dates from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Will probably remember opening the bottle of champagne on the bridge in Paris, awkward reencounters with former love interests, my good friend being seriously ill.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Very calm, very drama-free.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Dating remained a total dud...for reals.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Oh lord in March, I became convinced I had MS because my finger was twitching. As soon as I went to the doctor, and she told me it was prob. caffeine/my typing, I forgot about it.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Aforementioned Kindle

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

13. Whose behavior made you appalled?
Um...appalled is pretty strong. I don't think that happened.

14. Where did most of your money go?

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
I think I was mostly just excited to feel sort of balanced. I did get distraught at different times, though, especially over the summer because life wasn't like I wanted it to be, but then I came back from Paris and things just seemed to all in place--stopped worrying about what I couldn't control and did a much better job managing what was in front of me.

16. What song will always remind you of 2012?
I felt like Pon De Floor got a lot of play even though its old?

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier.
ii. thinner or fatter? A little fatter. :(...working on this but it's not going to improve by the end of the year.
iii. richer or poorer? A little poorer.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
I wish I had had less work at times, but also I need money, so...

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
With Mom.

21. Did you fall in love in 2012?

22. What was your favorite TV program?
None...BSG was never replaced in my heart.

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

24. What was the best book you read?
Villette by Charlotte Bronte

25. What was your greatest musical discovery of 2012?
I finally enjoyed Bob Marley and his songs started sounding sort of individual to me rather than filed away under reggae.

26. What did you want and get?
More work.

27. What did you want and not get?
Ugh...still processing (guys).

28. What was your favorite film of this year?
Barely saw any.

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
31, hamburgers and fries with three friends. And a milkshake!

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Ugh (guys).

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
"I can't afford new clothes" but I'm trying to be clean.

32. What kept you sane?
Eckhart Tolle.

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
?? I can't think of anyone.

34. What political issue stirred you the most?
Drones? Guantanamo?

35. Who did you miss?
Aw :) So many.

36. Who was the best new person(s) you met?
Not new, but I felt like I really solidified friendship with Mathieu, Maya's friend who is cool. And Benoit, his boyfriend.

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012:
I felt like I really began to internalize that what other people do doesn't affect me most of the time and it takes a lot of effort to keep track of all of it and "care," so I'm dropping a lot of that...have a been dropping.

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"How I wish, how I wish you were here"

Secret...I spend a lot of time now thinking what will be the lyric that sums up my year that I will write in LJ.

Here's to 2012! Wish I wrote here more, tho I'm always at www.maya-rock.com/blog, if you want to keep up. I like keeping up with everyone.

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Monday, April 23rd, 2007
6:17 pm
Also I love the first few lines of this Langston Hughes poem:


I don't have to work.
I don't have to do nothing
but eat, drink, stay black, and die.
This little old furnished room's
so small I can't whip a cat
without getting fur in my mouth
and my landlady's so old
her features is all run together
and God knows she sure can overcharge—
Which is why I reckon I does
have to work after all.

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Tuesday, March 27th, 2007
10:11 am - To Marina by Kenneth Koch
This is a looooooooong poem which I TYPED up for everyone. It's really long but very touching and totally worth reading, I think. These are my favorite lines:

You were the perfection of my life
And I couldn’t have you. That is, I didn’t.

Gosh, these lines do not seem special out of context. What's before and after them I think is pretty important.

Ok on to the rest of the poem.

To Marina

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Sunday, March 25th, 2007
12:21 pm - Friends page
I just dumped a bunch of people off my friends list who never update. Since my journal has gotten pretty personal lately I am uncomfortable sharing this stuff with anyone who doesn't update their journal or at least comment in mine. I really don't want to hurt anyone's feelings; and it seems like these are people who probably don't read lj that much anyway; but I'm pretty adverse to playing around with custom groups and I was really losing track of who was reading my journal.

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Wednesday, February 21st, 2007
9:56 am - this onion article is so good.
Giuliani To Run For President Of 9/11

February 21, 2007 | Issue 43•08

NEW YORK—At a well-attended rally in front of his new Ground Zero headquarters Monday, former New York City Mayor Rudy Giuliani officially announced his plan to run for president of 9/11.

"My fellow citizens of 9/11, today I will make you a promise," said Giuliani during his 18-minute announcement speech in front of a charred and torn American flag. "As president of 9/11, I will usher in a bold new 9/11 for all."

Giuliani at a campaign stop near Washington.

If elected, Giuliani would inherit the duties of current 9/11 President George W. Bush, including making grim facial expressions, seeing the world's conflicts in terms of good and evil, and carrying a bullhorn at all state functions.

"Let us all remember how we felt on that day, with the world watching our every move, waiting on our every word," said Giuliani, flanked by several firefighters, ex-New York Police Commissioner Bernard Kerik, and Judith Nathan, his third wife. "With a campaign built on traditional 9/11 values, and with the help of every citizen who believes in the 9/11 dream, I want to make 9/11 great again."

According to Washington–based political analyst Gregory Hammond, Giuliani's candidacy "should not be underestimated."
Giuliani Bio

"Sure, he has no foreign or national policy experience, and both his personal life and political career are riddled with scandal," said Hammond. "But in the key area of having been on TV on 9/11, the other candidates simply cannot match him. And as we saw in 2004, that's what matters most to voters in this post-9/11 world."

After his downtown Manhattan announcement, Giuliani held an afternoon rally near the Pentagon. In the early evening, he flew to a field outside Shanksville, Pennsylvania, where he hosted a $5,000-a-plate fundraising dinner in a tent decorated with clouds of ash, streaming sheets of singed office paper, and small piles of authentic rubble from the World Trade Center site.

Among the policy planks listed on his website are his Cleaner Air Act, which would severely limit the levels of smoke and harmful gases allowed to pour from 747s flying into 110-story office buildings, guaranteed health insurance covering burns caused by shards of burning metal, and his "No Child Left Behind In A Smoldering Skyscraper" initiative.

Giuliani supporters praised the candidate for his "early and unwavering commitment" to 9/11.

"People talk about Hillary Clinton and Barack Obama, but did either of them happen to be mayor of New York in September 2001?" Bedford, NH resident Helen Rolfe said. "Guiliani was. To me, that speaks volumes about this man."
Giuliani Video

Still from an early "Giuliani For 9/11" ad now running in New Hampshire.

Though his campaign apparatus is not yet fully operational, Giuliani's "mobile campaign units"—refurbished fire trucks decorated with banners, balloons, and bloodstains, whose droning sirens continuously blare Giuliani's official campaign song—have already begun canvassing towns in Iowa and New Hampshire.

Giuliani's pro-9/11 message seems to be resonating with potential voters. Said Ames, IA voter Alan Benoit: "I remember seeing Rudolph Giuliani's face, on television, saying reassuring things during a highly emotional moment filled with fear and confusion. He's got my vote."

With more than a year until the primaries—unless Giuliani's court-filed request to hold New York's primary on the second Tuesday in September is approved—Giuliani said it is too early to discuss potential running mates, though he refused to rule out the possibility of naming a twisted, half-melted aluminum beam, an FDNY ball cap, or even John McCain. Giuliani, however, called rumors that he had met with a large shard of glass from the wreckage of the Pentagon "patently untrue."

"Letting 9/11 fall into the hands of the Democrats in 2008 would be nothing short of a national tragedy," Giuliani said. "Ever since 9/11 was founded that fateful day on 9/11, 9/11 has stood for one thing: 9/11."
© Copyright 2007, Onion, Inc. All rights reserved.
The Onion is not intended for readers under 18 years of age.

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Friday, September 29th, 2006
4:35 pm
For those who know me. I'm thinking of getting my hair cut short, like boy-style short again. But by a better hairdresser. What do you think? I definitely get the impression I look better with longer hair and I feel more comfortable with it, but I'm really really bored with my look.

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Friday, June 9th, 2006
10:59 pm
I just saw an timer thing for how many days bush has left in office. I think it was like 998. I can't even fathom living 998 more days. So endless.

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Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
9:23 pm - I hate Carrie Bradshaw
In these later seasons she is SO annoying. Her intonations and jokes are so dumb. I hate her.

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Monday, February 13th, 2006
9:14 pm
Who is this hot speed skater on my screen? Jeremy...apparently he slips a lot.

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Friday, October 21st, 2005
8:26 pm - Addicted
Does anyone know where I can download Veronica Mars episodes???

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Sunday, September 25th, 2005
2:09 am - Bored now.
Bored now.

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Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
8:47 pm - Top Model thoughts/Jesus
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Saturday, August 20th, 2005
9:13 pm
When I read about intelligent design, I feel like I'm back in college and people are discussing something that seems so dumb to me but I know everyone's smarter than me, so I must be the dumb one. I just don't get it. I don't understand how things can seem too complicated not to be explained by evolution. I mean, doesn't evolution explain them? So they're not too complicated then, right? Philosophers, am I missing something.

I have like two pairs of shoes I wear in the summer--sneakers and flat sandals. My flat sandals are at work, so I have this choice of the geisha shoes, two very chunky pairs of heels from my high school days or the chunky furry blue high school boots. Those are the ones I'm wearing.

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Thursday, July 21st, 2005
4:07 pm - LEAVE ME ALONE
I am having a good vacation. But now my bag can be checked on the subway???? WTF? That's fucked up.

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Sunday, June 5th, 2005
8:46 pm
This weekend was my first in my new apartment. i am adjusting to the slantiness. Indeed, as I write, I am on the slanty floor. I like it here, but it is a little tight with Aaron and me. And the heat is awful. My mother tells me I need to get an air conditioner, but I think I'll just get a window fan. We have a floor one now. I mean you can put it on the window ledge, but it doesn't fit so nicely in a window like a window fan.

It's different having to find a place for everything and thinking, "Where will I put this? before buying anything.

Peter came yesterday and we went to Queen of Sheba, the great Ethiopian restaurant, with him and others. After that we went to a party on 89th st and then we came back home.

Now I'm working on the manuscript of the woman I'm representing--I'll spare everyone the whining that usually goes on when I have to do these things. But it's difficult, yet rewarding.

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Saturday, May 14th, 2005
9:34 am - Couch, Bed
A year ago I came to you asking if anyone had a couch...now I ask, does anyone need a couch? We're selling ours for $150. It's a really good couch, originally valued at $800. It's big enough or four people. The cushions are firm. Has pillows. Is beige. Aaron was able to transport it in the Jeep Grand Cherokee so if you have similar mode of transportation, you'll b okay and he might be wiilling to transport for additional $$.

Bed. I have to get a bed. Any suggestions?

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